We are having a baby! Yes, I am pregnant with our 4th child which is such a blessing!
And you know what? No matter how much you plan for a child, pray for a child, plead for a child… I’ve decided it’s always going to be scary.
No matter how much you long for a child or no matter how much of a shock a new child may be, taking a pregnancy test has got to be one of the most terrifying things ever.
Hands down, the moments of anticipation that have followed every pregnancy test I’ve ever taken, waiting, waiting, while that little lit-up hour glass flashes, and flashes, and flashes…
… those moments of anticipation have been some of the most terrifying ones of my entire life. They’re right up there with actually giving birth, which still terrifies me, even though I’ve done it three times. Go figure.
Surrender is always hard. And that’s okay.
No matter how much you think you’re ready or not, here baby comes! It’s like baby’s first little innate communication to us or something: Ready or not, here I come!
This sentiment is cute and sweet, and the baby will be cuddly and precious and amazing, and beautiful beyond belief, but I’m still terrified of the surrender required of me as a pregnant mother.
But you know what? Surrender to God is always hard, but it is always worth it.
So here’s to a brand new little life, already here with me and with my family, but coming soon out into this world! Please keep us in your prayers during this special time of anticipation.
Oh, and please say a little prayer that I can handle the joys (and nausea) of the first trimester with grace and joy! 😉
P.S. God is merciful & He loves you… pass it on!